Monday, November 14, 2011

Magic

I'm at a magical point in life. I feel blessed to realize this.

I really love having children. I love being a mom.

It's taken me awhile to realize this. I have always loved my children, but sometimes, I get bogged down in the day-to-day child care aspect. Sometimes I just want "to do what I want to do" (to quote Dottie). Sometimes I want to read a book all day long, be able to wake up later than 6:30, or go somewhere, anywhere, by myself.

But lately, I can't get enough of my children. I want to be there for every moment of their lives.

They are so precious.

What has changed me? I've been trying harder. Trying to be more patient, raising my voice less, and listening more. What do my children really want? Do they want to snuggle in bed? I can do that. Do they want to have songs sung to them and pet my hair? (Ruby is taking after Elliot) I can do that too. Do they want to invite friends over and have a girls party? I can do that as well.
Giving more of myself to my children has made me happier. When Jesus said, "But whosever will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it," I think he was talking about motherhood. I have "lost" my life, but am finally finding the joy that is possible.
If you haven't had children yet, for whatever reason, stop putting it off. Do it. There is no greater joy.

I am not a perfect parent. I still struggle. But the more I try, the more I love. The more I love, the more I grow. My children are at a special age, and I want to savor every moment.

12 comments:

Dolores Weed said...

Love those babies. Motherhood is the greatest fulfillment of life. Love my daughter!

Joe said...

Love that very special wife! If you have more to learn about parenthood, then I have at least twice that!

kellyweed said...

We miss these little cuties!! I want to kiss Ruby's chubby cheeks. You are a great mom, Charlotte :)

Gregorio Carlo said...

They are blessed to have you as their mama-ganoosh. You are a wonderful mother, like your mother.
Love, Dad.

Carolyn said...

Awwww. This almost made me cry. Really. I want to be a Mom! You are a great mother! I'm eating a bag of chocolate chips right now in hopes that it might happen, but I'm really enjoying the Wilbur's chocolately butter fat.

Mary said...

If you aren't a perfect mom you are pretty darn close in my opinion! I know exactly what you mean. Ironically, I had much more time to do things like read when I was working fulltime. I've started to call Jory "little cling-on" and "Velcro Boy" because he never gives me a moment's peace. If I try to pick up a book or work on a crochet project, he'll start to fuss, come over and rip it out of my hands. But I tell myself to be patient and enjoy this phase of his life when he needs me and wants me around all the time, because it won't last forever!

Tabitha said...

oh golly! What adorable little munchkins you have! And love the posts :) 3 Great kids= one great mom!(and dad too!) Miss you all!

Eisha said...

great post Charlotte!

Roberta said...

Love and hugs Charlotte! Continue with the magic!

Unknown said...

Amen! I need to do this so badly. I know my children are such sources of joy and they are here for me to teach and love and enjoy, but sometimes I get bogged down by the day to day too. Thank you for this reminder. Can you remind me again? Like tomorrow? And the day after that?

Danelle said...

Great post, Charlotte! I don't know if I'm quite there yet, but I'm trying too, and I really do like to be with Adeline and play with her, and I hate missing the fun moments. She loves to have her neck massaged. I can do that. I love that Ruby and Elliot like to have you sing to them and stroke your hair, that's really cute!

Morgan said...

Your children are so beautiful.